Hi all. Today was my first real day at work, and what a day it was. The vast majority of it was spent watching espn, and towards the end, a little cnn for good measure. There just wasnt too much traffic comming through the port today, so not too much training got done. My job got switched from passenger service to ramp yesterday, I was sooooo relieved. Not that I dont like working with people, but thats way too much desk job for me. I get to push pallets and inhale jet fuel all day... and that stuff is addicting... mmmmmnnnn good!! I only got to deal with two flights today, a C-5 (witch arent as big as I once thought they were, I was a little disapointed, but its all good) and a DC-10. I pretty much have the dumbest job in the port, but I like it, getting a chance to work with your hands all day is a blessing, and being on the flight line is definately a plus. Things would have been better, but no one was expecting us to be there to get trained, so I guess tomorow we will have to be a little more proactive if we are going to get anything of subastance done. I just want to be confident that I can do my job well, cause it aint fun being the guy who doesnt have a clue what he's doing, thats no one's friend, lol.

Now for the good stuff... I'm reading a book, and the chapter I read today was about being greatful. And I found out how to deal with sin, yeah, I probably should have figured that out along time ago, but come on, give me a break. The passage from the book goes as follows, "... we may find the explanation for why the great saints spoke about their sinfulness. Motivated, not by masochism, false modesty, or low self esteem. but by gratitude, they grew into an ever-deepening awareness that their passion for Christ, theri heroic life of prayer, and their unstinting generosity in ministry were all unmerited gifts." I dont think that early christians had as much of a problem thinking that they were junk like I and so many others do today. They remembered that where our sin increases, so does his grace. And that that is a good thing, it's the way that its all supposed to happen. Yeah, we dont deserve anything, but thats when Gods love comes in to take care of things. Where we fall short, he makes us tall. Looking at things from a "glass is half empty" perspective wont get the job done, it just makes us self centered. The saints the book talked about, had no problem understandint that they messed up, and they were greatful because of what Christ did for them, not embarised because of what they couldnt do for God. I now know how I have to be, I'm tired of screwing up, and the only motivation for not screwing up, is the crappy feeling from falling short. Thats not the way that God designed it, and thats not how its has to be.