Well, well... I just got back from church and I'm feeling alot less stressed about this whole California thing. God didnt calm the storm, he just calmed me in it. I like it, lol. Dont get me wrong, I'm still scared out of my mind, but God made me okey dokey with that (that was for you Briana :) ) I guess my biggest fear was realized today during one of the briefings, one of the guys who just came back from the desert was talking to us, and gave a warning that after about 4 months, you start to change, not that change is a bad thing, but I just never realized that I would change that much. But I guess thats why God has me going in the first place, der. I'm so afraid that when I get back I wont be able to relate to anyone or that people will change and I wont be able to pick up where I left off with them. (Ya know, this whole deployment thing is starting to really annoy me) I'll bet that this is where the whole trusting God and stepping out on faith bit comes into play, how about that, its like God "planned" this or something, lol. Its like God didnt design life to make things fun for me or somthing. Here's something that all of you can do to help me out! Pray. And pray specifically that I will have the guts to be who I am and who I am called to be in front of the guys I will be deploying with, ask God that I will be able to show them their need for Him, and that he will give me the words to introduce them to Him. I really need stregnth in there areas, because I tend to blend in with people I am uncomfortable with, Pray that I will be unashamed of my faith. God has given me a huge opprotunity, and I dont want to let him down, so pray hard and often, cause I cant do this without Him.